Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Ya know
My sister and I was talking and she said I was never really that heavy till I broke up with my b/f back in the 90's...and thinking on it, I was sooo miserable I wanted to move to the mid west with my Aunt at the time...It was horrible and could have been why I have spiraled since.
Monday, May 9, 2011
You know what I hate?
I hate every time I eat I have to sleep...I think that is the reason I try not to eat so I don't eat. How crazy is that?
Yuck
Have to go get family pictures done, meaning with my 3 sisters and brother. Not sure what I am looking most forward too, The picture taking itself or being told off...SIGH
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Well,
Went to "Workforce" today to take a class called Skills and Abilities. Had to write what they call a 60 second commercial about myself and I was having so much self doubt that I was in tears. The instructor came over and I explained what has been going on and she said that I was brave and courageous...Me? Kinda made me feel good
Monday, May 2, 2011
So what have I eaten today?
Well, had my 2 cups of coffee and ate 2 bowls of my sisters rice...minute rice and cream of mushroom soup baked and Diet Pepsi
Amazing how a good day can turn to hell
I just found out that my unemployment ran out. What the hell am I gonna do now? SIGH!
Good Morning!
I feel good today but that could be because of Bin Laden getting a bullet to the brain...I am right now heating up coffee for the 2nd time as someone unplugged the coffee pot. SIGH! Of course everyone would think of themselves instead of others...maybe I need to learn to be selfish...Now there's a thought...
Sunday, May 1, 2011
ok here is my first food entry
So had a can of Chef Boyardee's Beef Ravioli with some cheese and I am drinking a can of Diet Pepsi
Welcome to my blog
I need to put into words how I am feeling about myself. I feel horrendous, embarrassed, and all around awful. See I can't find a job and I am now officially afraid to go out of my house and into the public. I am "obese" you see and I am always judged on how I look and when you have no confidence in yourself it makes it hard to really do anything. Yes I have a feeling I am depressed which really doesn't help anything but no job means no insurance which means I am SOL in that department. My plans for this blog is to hopefully kick me in the ass and get busy losing weight so I can get a life...I do not have that right now...I would call it existing and that is just not enough. With this blog I will show what I eat and how often I eat (believe it or not I don't eat that much during the day.) As of right now I have had 1 and a 1/2 cups of coffee and it is 2:18PM but hungry right now. :SHRUG: So there is a comment button below this post if you chose to use it but please don't leave mean comments. How would that be helpful to a person who might be depressed?
Staci
Staci
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